when it's crunch time, we do not forget who we can go to for help. just when you think that they are gone, they come back, they open up their world again for you to consume, they're there for you again.
now i learned that people who stray away sometimes are just trying to find the way themselves. it's not because they do not want to be with you anymore, it's just that they want to try something new, learn something else and be someone else for a bit.
i know how that feels, how it feels to crave for something different in our lives, something out of the ordinary and beyond the routine.
and then when you see each other again somewhere down the road, you're both bigger, better and wiser. you have more to share with each other, more to talk about, more to learn about one another and that makes everything else new.
just when you think you lost someone, they come back to surprise you and let you know that they're still there, they're still with you.
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on a different note:
why can't i just tell you how i feel about you, why can't i find the courage to face what i have done, or not done.