what do you get when you have too much time in your hands?

this:


back when i worked in a callcenter, i used to doodle a lot. i drew stuff to keep me busy and sane in the wee hours of the morning. i did a lot of weird drawings, word associations, flowers, spirals and practiced writing my name just in case someone asked for my autograph. i also practiced my concept of my married signature which included the name of my then boyfriend. it was very lame but while i was doing that i had a stupid grin on my face. i imagined myself signing papers and stuff with that added name on my signature. i contemplated on wether to include the whole name or just letters of it. i finally decided on putting in the whole thing. what's embarassing (and sweet at the same time) was that my (x) boyfriend was standing behind me the whole time! he saw what i was doing and of course seeing his last name there he grabbed the paper from me and asked me what the heck i was doing. i was too embarassed to answer and then he said


"aww Ira, how pathetic!"



nah.. he didnt say that. he wasnt that much of a hellion. he smiled his stupid bedimpled smile when he saw what i wrote, kissed me on the cheek and said "i love you too switi." i was freakin speechless.. mostly from embarassment and partly because he knew what to say and what not to say. at that moment he made me fall in love with him all over again. i found that paper in his/our room a few weeks before our breakup. when we, well he, decided to part ways, something inside of me wanted to get that piece of paper and burn it. but what the heck, i just decided to leave it there just in case.



disclaimer: nothing really. sad to say, this is a true story.