my old self

inspired by nel's post :)


Though Ive loved you for what seems like forever, Ive finally realized that Im going to be ok without you. You broke my heart and I continued to love you, but now I can see that I will be ok. Like I had something to fulfill before i could let go. I never stopped loving you or wanting you for one moment. Now, I still love you and i always will. You will always have a place in my heart, but the difference between now and then, is that I have stopped wanting you. Love lasts forever, But now that I dont want you, That thing has been fulfilled and I have finally let you go. You're forever in my heart.

And i cant believe that im actually OK without you.


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NowI know why someone took someone away from me. It is for me to realize that there is life beyond the life i was living back then. There was more to do than cook food for him or clean the house for him or think of what to eat for dinner or what movie to watch with him or what game to watch him play. My world did not consist of me spending all my waking and sleeping hours with him, I had my friends and my family too. I look back then and Im thinking what an ass I was for not seeing it too soon. I should have seen the signs and the billboards that God posted in my face about what Im doing with my life. Now, I have come to realize how precious my time and attention is to other people, people that really mattered, people who truly and geniunely (spelling check) loved me.




this is a picture of my old self. a repost from my old blog. this is someone i said goodbye to a long time ago. just reliving my moment of weakness to see how strong i've become. thanks nel, for inspiring me always. here's to us. to all of us who have loved and lost and learned to love again.