i just finished watching the movie and it makes me wonder how i would be if i erased my memories of him.. would i be happier? would i be where i am right now? would my personality be the same? would everything be so much easier than it is right now?
the movie makes you think that if all of that is possible.. if after all the things you go through to forget that someone, in the end you will always be bumping into each other, crossing paths, finding something to remind you of the past.. and then all the hurt and the pain comes gushing back. and that my friends, isnt the ending that i want for myself. i want to move on and not feel the hurt anymore when i think of him. i want to be able to remember memories and still not flinch or feel butterflies in my tummy. i want to forget.. but i cant and we can never forget stuff as big as that in your life. now that sucks man.
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this was written in a previous blog which i completely forgot about till an old friend reminded me about it. p.s. this one was written so long ago. i dont necessarily feel this way anymore. i think.