eternal sunshine
i just finished watching the movie and it makes me wonder how i would be if i erased my memories of him.. would i be happier? would i be where i am right now? would my personality be the same? would everything be so much easier than it is right now?
the movie makes you think that if all of that is possible.. if after all the things you go through to forget that someone, in the end you will always be bumping into each other, crossing paths, finding something to remind you of the past.. and then all the hurt and the pain comes gushing back. and that my friends, isnt the ending that i want for myself. i want to move on and not feel the hurt anymore when i think of him. i want to be able to remember memories and still not flinch or feel butterflies in my tummy. i want to forget.. but i cant and we can never forget stuff as big as that in your life. now that sucks man.
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this was written in a previous blog which i completely forgot about till an old friend reminded me about it. p.s. this one was written so long ago. i dont necessarily feel this way anymore. i think.
posted by ira @ 5:21 AM
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9 Comments:
you think? hehe. sabi mo eh, supportahan ta ka.
kainis ka! pero thanks sa support. haha
what's wrong with the blogger system today? the comment page keeps refreshing.
by itself. yiii. katakot.
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yes. and do these people even have the faintest that we STILL think about them?
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a previous blog..? where is this previous blog, pre-Spongebob mania ba ito..?
Freaky! I haven't seen that movie and I think I should see it. The thing that freaked me out is that yan mismo ginagawa ko. Erasing the memory and all but shempre, we have friends in common kaya next to impossible to do so. (Sa friendster nga we have 83 people in common)
Hay buhay.... sabi nga ng friend ko, nagpapatawa nanaman si God.
...ang lubid, dali..!
siya and itali naten. si spongebob-tigger.
Hahahahahahaha! hmmmmmm..... (entertains the thought)
hahaha you guys are so silly.
erik what you said sounded a bit, naughty! haha
im guessing they dont even think about us anymore. i have one who only talks to me when he doesnt have a gf. well, we kind of had a pact before i left.. il blog about it someday, maybe tonight.
marcus, oh i mean nel, i read it somewhere that after 6 years you want a "new normal", that must be real hard. you're a toughie. i admire you.
Thanks, Ira. Yep, story of my life. The new normal is because I can't bring back the old normal. A lot of things have changed and can't be buried or forgotten.
There's nothing else to do but create a new normal where we can be unaffected (dare I say happy) each time we see the person we once loved and loved us back.
Oops... almost forgot....
boing... boing... boing....
*big grin
yes, we have to give it to him.
nel, admire you, too. the bravery.
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dismal though the boing boing boing.
joke.
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oh well, thanks, you two, for the respite.
enjoyed it immensely.
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