pang of loneliness

move forward, that's what people say to me all the time. i am, i am moving forward and not looking back if i can help it. it's funny how i learn stuff from watching anime/manga. i swear, in my life, i would have never thought that i would learn life lessons through cartoons. this anime im watching is about taking risks, loneliness and how we all feel the same way sometimes.. and facing the reality that people don't always turn out the way you want them to be.

we all get lonely, it's part of growing up. some sadness in our life in inevitable and it's a passing thing... no matter how deep in shit we think we are, we can still rise up to the challenge and get over it. i've felt that way sometimes. even when im with someone, my family or friends, i still get that feeling of loneliness, the feeling that i have no one to share my life with. but then i wake up and smell the coffee and i see how im surrounded by people who love me, people who step back to watch me grow, learn my lessons and step in when i need help. i was afraid that people would abandon me. that's all i cared about before. but then i realized that i was afraid for the wrong people to leave me. i learned that if people really loved me, then i wouldnt have to be afraid of them leaving me... for they will always be there, no matter what.

so, right now, for two years, i dont remember feeling lonely even if im miles away from people who care. i think i'm doing good.