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Wednesday, June 27, 2007

unlucky

ok ok, i think i get it. you dont have to shove it in my face that im so unlucky in love. i know that i like the wrong guys and look past the ones that are good to me. i know that i get bored easy with some people and that my taste for adventure has gotten me in trouble more than once in my life. i know that there are people that are off limits, but i still ask the universe to do the opposite of what i should be doing. i am never with the one who is patient with me or gives me flowers just for the heck of it. i am never with the one who calls me just to say hi, or goodnight, or i hope youre eating and not exercising too much. i am never with the one who shows up on my doorstep one lazy afternoon to surprise me with his hugs. i am never with the one who brings me home, or makes sure that i am home, or picks me up when i need him to. i am never with the one who is not afraid to hold my hand infront of everyone or give me a peck on the cheek. i am never the with the one who is content with just lying in bed, hugging or watching tv or some movie we will never understand because we would be looking at each other the whole time anyway.

i have, however, been with the one who throws all the tantrums, the one who is pickier than me, the one who always gets his way, the one who holds your hand infront of other people but holds another's hand when youre not looking, a stalker (unbelievable, i know!), and someone who thinks he has the right to do whatever he wants with you.

i am still hopeful, though i've seen and heard so much about these things. my first thought is that i've been watching too many drew barrymore movies, but also, all of us deserve to have that kind of love once in our lives..

i am never going to sit around and wait for it to come. i will still go about and live my life. but i will still wait.

4 Comments:

Blogger Marcus-kos said...

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10:58 AM  
Blogger Marcus-kos said...

At the risk of sounding way too optimistic, I believe luck is what you make it. We all have a choice and it's just a matter of weighing things out before making that choice.

By the way, you can listen to me through this link: http://www.surfmusic.de/radio-station/
dwll-mellow-touch-94-7-fm,4225.html

it doesn't always work but when it does, you actually can hear me hehehehe

I'm on Mon to Fri 8 Pm till Midnight (Manila Time)

11:00 AM  
Blogger ira said...

oooh. thanks for the link. adi sent me a recording of you and this girl one time, talking about love.

and yeah, i know, you're right. we do make our own luck. i almost always make the wrong decision lang siguro. it's either i give too little or too much of myself.

now, i still don't know if i've made the right decision. but im happy, sometimes. but i also feel hurt more often than when i was looking after my own butt.

oh well, it's worth the risk. i just dont know if he feels the same way.

we will see eh?

so, hows you and the misus? hehee i see going strong parin ha.

1:00 PM  
Blogger Marcus-kos said...

Hmmmm.... as Oprah said, "Love isn't supposed to hurt". Weigh things out. Which "what if?" can you live with?

We're doing great! Almost a year na kami :-) Yiiihheeee!!!!

7:39 AM  

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