my 100th post

yey for this, my 100th post. i never thought i could go this far. believe me, this is a big thing for me. i almost always never continue, finish even, anything i started.

this is not the end of it tho.

i'm in love with blogging more than ever. it's freedom. it's passion and it always listens without any judgements.

sometimes, it's even better than most friends i have.

so YEY!


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why does this christmas feel, well, different.

it's not such a big deal for me anymore. it's like i lost the christmas spirit, like i'm not filipino anymore. i remember when i was young, i would count the days till our christmas party at school. we get to dress up, wear outside clothes, play games, give gifts and stuff then lakwatsa after the party. i loved highschool christmas parties. the newspaper dance, the egg-throwing, all those cheesy party games. i didn't realize how fun they were till now. now that we're all grown up, we don't get to do silly things anymore. we don't get to act like kids.

a friend asked me when was the last time i actually got rained on, for no reason at all. just plain letting myself get wet, soaking in the raindrops just for the fun of it. i was stumped. the last time i remember doing that was way back when i was in gradeschool. me and sister were running around, flinging tabo-s of water at each other and lying on the ground while it was raining on our faces.

i want to be able to do that again, even as an adult. it sucks that i don't have anyone to be silly with here, i left all of them back home.

see, that's why i miss home, i miss my friends, i miss how silly we can all get and kapag trip, trip talaga.

this christmas made me realize how important those people are. how they make every year for me very special, and how they make me feel loved even if im thousands of miles away. i love all of you. and i hope you know that.