this is the end

the new year. what's so special about it? to me, right now, it does not feel any different than the other days in my life. if it weren't for all the hype, i wouldnt notice the year roll to the next.

looking back, i feel like this year was a mellow one. compared to the year before, i didnt party as much, drank as much, ate as much and puked as much. i even stuck to my new year's resolution of going to the gym every morning. i was a pretty good girl, my mom and dad wouldve been proud of me. and i didnt do anything kuya marty won't do *wink*wink*

lorraine and i were looking at old pictures from 2005 and i have to admit, those were good times. we hung out every week till the wee hours of the morning, told stories, listened to them or just watched the moon set and the sun rise above the horizon with a bottle in hand or just passed out on rooftops and couches. i miss those times. lorraine's right, we all grew up somehow and stopped doing those silly things. i stopped coming as often as i used to, one of us became serious with his career and life, and two of us started hanging out just the two of them. plus the fact that our little group grew into a far bigger group than it used to be, hanging out became a party, but it's not as intimate as before. i miss those days.


i don't like being a grown up. i have to face life and the realities and the debt and the loneliness and the fact that when we die, we always die alone.


ok wait, that was being a bit morbid.


i want those days back.

i just hope that in this coming year, everything that i have now, will just stay the way they are. or be better.

cheers everybody. goodbye to the old, hello to the new, but i hope i get to say hi to the old again someday.




HAPPY NEW YEAR!