one of the hardest things i have ever had to do is to get over a crush. petty as it may seem, crushes are the hardest to forget. im sure we all still remember our first crush, or the crush we had when we were in highschool, or that one person who still makes you feel giddy whenever you see him.


it's hard to forget because the what if's and the should've beens will never be answered.


i used to rationalize having crushes. no complications, you feel the high without any committments, the high never fades, no worries about getting pregnant, or cheating or buying them gifts. it used to be fun for me.

but now, i hate having crushes. they have this power over me that no one can understand. they make me feel happy, they can make me feel sad, they can ruin my day or they can make my day. they can even deprive me of my precious sleep, or motivate me to go to the gym everyday.

what's frustrating is, i know they shouldnt have that much effect on my life, but i still let them do so.

argh. to hell with him.