where are you?

i used to be strong, i used to be the controller of my own destiny. i didnt listen to anyone, i didnt care about anything. i only knew one direction and that is forward. i only knew one destination and how to get there. i dont get lost. well, i do sometimes, but then i find my path once more just like that.

where are you now, used-to-be? why did you disappear and left behind this excuse for a person? why did you leave a weakling, a softie, an underdog, a too-kind person who can't exist without approval from certain people?

come back, you hear me? i want you back.