void

i am in the mood to do this.

milk

I am milk
I am Red Hot Kitchen
And I am cool
Cool as the deep blue ocean

I am lost
So I am cruel
But I'd be love and sweetness
If I had you

that crazy night

saturday, april 22, 2007 is my most happiest, embarassing and most unforgettable day in my life..

that day was the first time i got kicked out of a club.

me! the goody-two-shoes!

kicked out, escorted out by two bouncers who did the red-sea-moses hawi the crowd to let me through..

look at me! i was all dressed up, prettified myself, ready for a night of no-holds-barred dancing since i havent been out in a long time.

pre drinking was a bad idea. or was it a good one? i can not tell. i know my limit when it comes to alcohol. i know i couldve taken more alcohol without passing out like that.

that night, i crossed the line, from the land of the good girls, to the land of the people actually passing out and not know what they did when they wake up.

I actually didnt know how i got home. i dont recall walking, i do not recall leaving the club or even puking in the bathroom.

all i knew was there were three people who took me home.

three friends who cleaned me up, carried me up three flights

of stairs, put me in bed, waited till i calmed down and even took me home the next day. three friends i owe lunch to when i sober up again.

that's them ---->

they say there's a first time for everything. i guess that was my turn. and i liked it. but it will never happen again. my friend jesse swore off tequila, and im swearing off vodka.

it's been a long time

there are a lot of things that i have not done in a long time. but, i am glad that fate gave me the chance to experience them all over again, and now in a whole new light. i see everything in a different perspective. everything is so different. my thought on friends changed, my disposition in life is more positive, my view of things to come, my personality, me. i changed.

i was afraid to let myself go. but now, i feel free, i feel more independent. i found out that i do not need people to make me happy, i can do that myself. having my friends are a plus, definitely, but i learned that having them doesnt mean that im dependent on them. they do not complete me, they complement me.

i complete me.