happy holloween!!

what made my day part 2 and adi's tagetty tag tag

ello... read ur post about dun sa **********... that was fun isn't it?.. seen ur pics.. chubby pero pretty...

- pexer


see this up here ^.. this right here made my day. wait, scratch that, it made my whooole month! it may even last till the end of the year! i was doing my usual browsing in Pinoyexchange then a box pops out saying i have a pm. so ok, i click on it and someone sent me this message. kahit mejo may sablay, ok na din. i was smiling from ear to ear, heck, pati pwet ko tumatawa. haha.

well, my profile had the addy of my old multiply account with pics from two years ago. i have to admit i was chubby. well, not chubby, more like huge in my standards.. that's why i enrolled in a gym. i treadmilled, ellipticalled, stationary biked, rowed and cross trained my ass off for the last 8 months. it kind of paid off. now, im addicted to my morning exercise.

that rules off the chubby part. and leaves the pretty part. wheee! someone thinks im purty. that's something i dont hear everyday.

thanks to you, you who sent me the pm, for you made me look forward, instead of dwell in the past.



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What do you regard as the lowest depths of misery?

i guess being alone and lonely. it's different from being alone and happy, content or anything else that doesnt equate to loneliness. maybe i'll be very depressed if i knew that nobody really cared about me anymore, when i become invisible in the eyes of people that matter to me.it changes, you know.. what you regard as the lowest depths of misery. as we grow old, we find out that the lowest we thought we could get when we were in highschool wasnt really that bad.. it gets worse.. but we almost always get through it.

Where would you like to live?

i would like to live where i can walk to the beach whenever i want to, where i can hear the waves hit the shore and where the air makes my skin smell like salt water. or wherever there's a roof over my head and cable internet and tv. hehee.

What are your biggest faults?

loving too much, giving too much, trusting people too much and not being optimistic enough.

Qualities you admire most in a man?

i admire the way they can not grow up and get away with it. really, how do you do that? i want to be able to act all childish and stupid and insensitive but still get what i want, or dont want or "pwede na" wants.

Qualities you admire most in a woman?

resilience. no matter what you throw her way, she will either dodge it, face it, catch it, beat it or whatever, depending on her mood you know.

What is/are your favorite color/s?

i am currently loving grey (sorry adi :)) because it's neutral. im not in the mood to make decisions of either to wear white or black. going inbetween is easier. i have recently discoved that the color rust works for me. i feel and look good in it. let's not forget pink, makes my cheeks pop. i have no idea why i'm always pink. an ex calls me patrick starfish, not because im dumb but because my face is always pink. and i loooove blue, all shades. reminds me of the sea.. love the sea.

Favorite writers?

sadly, i don't have any. i read just about anything. wait, come to think of it, i'll name a few.momel, adi, nel, nancy and the lady that keeps the dessert blog.

What do you value most in your friends?

their love, understanding, patience, acceptance and time. because they still take time to ask me how i am, tell me stuff, listen to my rants and raves and make sure im doing just fine.

Your most marked characteristic/s?

i laugh at almost anything, i'm a wallflower unless we're close friends then i'll be the life of the party, i'm madaldal despite what other people think but i can't make good kwento or tell a joke. and i touch-touch. i love to touch-touch. really. it makes me feel good.

Favorite pursuits of leisure?

blockbuster, trying out new restaurants, food trips back in the philippines, surfing the net, lurking around friendster and pex, sleeping in or staying in bed then watch food network, food network, shopping and organizing other people's things. not mine. i hate organizing my stuff.

What are your favorite names?

ira. of course, love your own. i like proceso too. it's unique and it sticks. i currently like clara, kieran, luc and james.

How would you like to die?

well, if my family was rich enough to keep me alive for a little bit more, then maybe il ask them to keep me alive for a couple of weeks so i could just tell everyone i love that i love them. that's how i would like to die, guilt-free, content and happy to be able to let out everything in here *fist on chest*

What are you pet peeves?

i hate it when people chew loudly, or slurp their soup like there's no tomorrow. ugh, disgusting. i hate it when people make me wait and when they promise something that they won't be able to keep. this disappoints me more than anything. i also hate it when people make singit when you're in line. we should all be civilized enough to be able to form a line and stick to it!

Motto you try to live by?

keep the faith ira, keep the faith. i try to. but some people just keep stomping on your spirits.

Favorite hero/ines of fiction?

hermione, sophie, and spongebob. i admire his love of life. he sees the good in everything. i wish i could be more like him.

Celebrities you admire most?

nobody. sorry. or wait, maybe ... nah, nobody.

Heroes in real life?

my mom, my lola, friends (kayong apat), my dad.

the weekend that was

for the first time in my life, i partied with a famous person. well, they say he's famous but ive never heard of him nor his band.. but nevertheless, famous is famous. haha. this is just a story of my weekend so let's go back to where it all started, my invite to go to D.C. i was invited by a good friend to spend the weekend with her in D.C. it's nothing new, i've always been a weekend guest in their apartment eversince she first came here. we had dinner at zorba's and we had one of the yummiest chicken i've ever had. this is one place im definitely bringing future guests to and im sure they will love it. after dinner, we headed out to cosi's for dessert. we had a few laughs and catching up and then we went to brickskeller. brickskeller is an awesome place. they have over 3000 beer selections from all over the world. their list is so long, you won't be able to decide on what to get. you may also resort to just shutting your eyes and pointing to the list and let your finger do the picking. i usually pick the beers that have a fruit flavor to it since i dont really like beer, too bitter for my taste. my friends go for the ones with the highest alcohol content. 10% the better. another first for me.. i used the men's bathroom. well, i can't help it! i need to pee real bad and the women's bathroom is soo gross. i told lorraine to keep watch while i run into the men's room to pee. she tried to stop me but seeing that the situation won't get any better, she followed my lead. ha! after brickskellar, we went back to jesse's apartment. while walking along P street, jesse saw someone he knew. he said hi to him and introduced us to him. i didnt really know him, i thought he was just another fil-amboy, then he said he was the lead singer of The Speaks. i was like, the who? and apparently they're pretty famous back in the Philippines (are they?). And no matter how hard victor tried to hide his true feelings, i knew he was starstruck! (haha, kidding victor, peace tayo) so he invites us to "party" with them in this one club i've never been to, although we pass by it everyday. we got in easy while there was a little line outside and inside, was well, a party. *sigh* if only im still in that stage of my life where dancing and drinking mattered then i wouldve appreciated all that. we bobbed our head a little, swayed a little here and a little there, had a couple of drinks then headed out. i felt the crowd was a little too young for me. am i old na? so we just hung out at jesse's apartment, drank hypnotique and coke and went home at 4:30 am. 4:30 am??!! i've never been up for that long for almost 6 months! im so not used to it. but it was fun. had a little bonding time with victor, comfort here, high-fives there, huggies and back pats. it was all good.

i also did a little bit of shopping *ira slaps hands* "bad, ira! bad!"

i know i shouldnt have but i couldnt help it. i got two RL polo shirts for only $15.00 each! i got a cool sweater from H&M for $15.00 and 4 shirts from Gap and H&M for about 7 dollars each. wasnt that an awesome bargain? i wish i could post pics but im too tamad. maybe some other day.

it was allll gooood.

pang of loneliness

move forward, that's what people say to me all the time. i am, i am moving forward and not looking back if i can help it. it's funny how i learn stuff from watching anime/manga. i swear, in my life, i would have never thought that i would learn life lessons through cartoons. this anime im watching is about taking risks, loneliness and how we all feel the same way sometimes.. and facing the reality that people don't always turn out the way you want them to be.

we all get lonely, it's part of growing up. some sadness in our life in inevitable and it's a passing thing... no matter how deep in shit we think we are, we can still rise up to the challenge and get over it. i've felt that way sometimes. even when im with someone, my family or friends, i still get that feeling of loneliness, the feeling that i have no one to share my life with. but then i wake up and smell the coffee and i see how im surrounded by people who love me, people who step back to watch me grow, learn my lessons and step in when i need help. i was afraid that people would abandon me. that's all i cared about before. but then i realized that i was afraid for the wrong people to leave me. i learned that if people really loved me, then i wouldnt have to be afraid of them leaving me... for they will always be there, no matter what.

so, right now, for two years, i dont remember feeling lonely even if im miles away from people who care. i think i'm doing good.

what makes you smile?

my lola, washington d.c.(10/7/06)

connor calling my name

thoughts of his laugh

the smile on nico's and matthew's faces when they see me in the morning

food on my table

my warm bed

cable and all our on-demand movies

blockbuster online and the movies that come in the mail

postsecret.com

my Seagate hard drive

Spongebob and Patrick

blog friends

Ugly Betty (Betty la Fea), The Office, Lost, Scrubs, Grey's Anatomy

Mariel and Camille

the thought of my family visiting me next year

Gael Garcia Bernal and his next movie, Babel

my 6 pillows on my bed

hot water plus lavender soap = good night's sleep

Kel and him not forgetting me

night skypes and ym's with Sheldon

chats with Nancy, Cha, Tanya and Lorraine

the thought of me holding a ROUNDTRIP plane ticket going to the Philippines




i just thought it was about time that i make a list of things that i have, things that i overlook, things that i should be grateful for, things to look forward to.

the office

The Office



"I accidentally watched the Fugitive again on cable this weekend. That's a really good movie. It's like a really, really, really good movie."


Meet Jim Halpert from The Office. Adorable, sensitive and uber cute.



btw,
i so totally agree with you jim. i luuuve you seriously. stalker alert.