from a psychsoc peep

thank you sheila.


"At the end of the day, when it comes down to it, all we really want is to be close to somebody. So this thing where we all keep our distance and pretend not to care about each other, it's usually a load of bull. So we pick and choose who we want to remain close to, and once we've chosen those people, we tend to stick close by. No matter how much we hurt them. The people that are still with you at the end of the day, those are the ones worth keeping. And sure, sometimes close can be too close. But sometimes, that invasion of personal space, it can be exactly what you need."

i agree, and im glad that the people i want to be with, want me to be with them as well. there are more important things in the world than making other people happy when the ones that really matter are already happy, no matter what you do, no matter what happens.

to de

daddy, madaya ka. nangiwan ka. sabi mo pupuntahan mo ako dito. sabi mo excited ka na pumunta dito kahit malayo ako, kahit matagal yung biyahe. sabi mo you cant wait na bilhan kita ng packs and packs ng white hanes t-shirt mo. excited na din ako pakita sa iyo yung buhay ko dito. pero ngayon, di na pwede. pano nyan, di man lang kita makikita ulit. im sorry de. hindi ako makakauwi. sorry talaga. sana wag ka mag tampo sa akin ha. alam mo naman na love na love kita. i just wish i couldve done more for you. im sorry for leaving without even kissing you. sana the last time i talked to you i said i love you. sana you know that i do.

i love you daddy.

blackprincess888: that u are this wonderful person that can be vulnerable but is capable of strength as well

blackprincess888: dude were all vulnerable at some point

blackprincess888: if were not, then were not people

when you ask for a sign from God, does he ever give it to you? my mom always tells me to pray and pray and pray for a sign from Him whenever im lost or in need of guidance. i guess it works for her, but for me, whenever i need it the most, parang wala eh. i wait and wait, but nothing comes to me.

there was this one time he gave me a total slap in the face as a sign and i couldnt help but listen to it.

i guess silence means something, too. maybe i should listen more carefully.

respite

pushing tin

this is why i don't.

it's scary to go through it all over again.

i like the beach, the sea. it gives me a feeling of freedom, of unlimited possibilities. it makes me feel like anything could happen, good or bad. you do not really know what's going on unless you look deeper into it. when you're there, you can't fight the current, you can't fight the waves, because if you do, it takes you further away from where you really want to go. the waves taught me how to let it all go, all my inhibitions, my fears, my worries, and just go with the flow, go to wherever it may take me, to let it do the driving.

it's a good lesson.

it helps me loosen up, when i think about things a little too much.