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American Cities That Best Fit You::

80% San Francisco

65% Honolulu

65% Los Angeles

55% Washington, DC

50% Denver

Which American Cities Best Fit You?

wow, maybe i should consider moving to your place tanya. hehee :) i love san francisco even if i havent been there. from all the years watching charmed and seeing pics from families and friends, i love the way the city is built and the way the city thrives. oh well, il save the raves for when i finally get to see san francisco. L.A. isnt really in my top 5, well maybe the suburbs but not in the city mismo. it's not that impressive and it reminds me so much of manila. new york would be a better choice. i love the fast-paced life there. i might not be able to keep up but il surely love the food trips. Honolulu? who wouldnt want to live there. that would be a dream come true. life's a beach is what i always say. maybe in the future, or in my next lifetime, il be born there so i wouldnt have to pay a thousand dollars just to get there.

surprisingly, washington dc is in my top 5. that's where i live! well technically i live in the washington dc area but what the heck, i can still call it dc if i want to. i would really love to live in downtown dc. despite the crime wave going through the district right now, i still love life over there. walking can take you anywhere you want to and you dont really need a car because everything is just right there. tax will kill you tho. and rent. argh. but you gotta love the people, the sights, the food and the diversity. students, yuppies, retirees, families, you'll find everything here. sigh.

im surprised that san diego didnt come up. i love that place too.


anybody watched the office? what about grey's anatomy? remember next week, lost comes back with a new episode. whee. i luuurve american tv.

smelly cat.. the office..

every special memory is associated with a scent. when you're surrounded by that smell, your heart will always return to that unforgettable memory, there the colors are forever bright.

- makoto, boys be


i was watching this show and this character was talking about how scents help us remember stuff. for as far back as i remember, i've always been fascinated by smells and some people have always told me how weird i am for loving smelly stuff. i smell e-v-e-r-y-t-h-i-n-g. i have got to try everything at least once.

the bad thing about my scent fetish is that it mostly reminds me of my past youknowwhats.

my bf back in highschool had this perfume from avon that i absolutely loved. everytime we go somewhere or whenever we meet, i ask him to wear it. i still smell it whenever i pick up an avon catalog (haha) and it still reminds me of the good (or bad) ol' days. before coming to where i am right now i had a "going-away" trip with an ex-bf. he wore my favorite perfume on a man. sheesh right? i hated him for that. he ruined it for me. well, up till now, whenever i smell aqua di gio for men, it reminds me of the days when i lost my better judgement. haha. kidding not really. that was fun tho. and the cherry on top of the sundae, irish spring sport reminds me of the days when i bathed with it just to smell like my then-bf. he thought it was cute back then but right now, it sounds a little stalker-ish.


im a changed woman. im finding new scents to cherish. like baby's breath. or baby's poo. haha.



right now, i'm addicted to the office. i found it boring at first, but im beginning to like it, well, im beginning to understand the humor. watch it, it's so much fun. im a sucker for love stories and im so kilig with jim and pam. the others, so funny. dwight i love to hate. michael i feel sorry for. urgh! you should watch it. start from the beginning. it's not like lost that you get lost when you miss an episode you're thrown completely off track.

well, go ahead. watch it.

what made me happy this week:


connor (holding my sweater against his cheek): ooh, ira, soft.

ira: smell it! smell it! (me being gross)

connor put it up against his nose and smelled it.

ira: what does it smell like?

conner: uhm, IRA!

grateful me

thanks my friends and to mi familia, for always reminding me how loved i am despite and inspite of.

thanks to cha, tanya, nancy, collyn and sige na nga pati na ikaw khym (kahit you forgot) for always being there for me plus a bit more.

nancy, thanks for the very uhm, unusual gift that i sooo love!

tanya, you're making my dream to buy grey's anatomy season two a reality! thanks!

collyn, adi thank you both for wasting space in your blogs for me, i am truly grateful my sister friend and my running mate.

to my family, auntie donna, uncle tony, lola, mom, dad, issa, mariel, camille thanks for supporting me in all that i do, no matter how gaga i am.

to czarree, malu, lorraine, choyette, bryan, jesse, victor, dennis, gerald for my surprise birthday party. i seriously had no idea you were having one for me. you guys are good.

to alvin and reyes for coming to my party

i had so much fun being the center of attention. haha.

to nel, carlo, sarah, mojhdeh, reg, ate liza, john, james, nora, sandra, boyet, jessa, rixie, marco, lyn, elsie, pros, kaye santos, wosie, charms, momel, bryan, ronan, omeed, the children in the shoe people, sheldon and everybody else for sending their love.

love you all. and i just want you to know, you made this one of the best bdays ever!

true joy

janice ira tuazon -- [noun]: A person who laughs at anything (even this entry) 'How" will you be defined in the dictionary?' at QuizGalaxy.com

so true.


thanks to those who remembered. i made a list and i was so glad that it went past ten. im loved!


*burp* i think i had too much birthday cake.

content

talking to a good friend made me realize that i'm contented with my life.

thank you cha.

i finally found the explanation to why im such a loner (but not lonely) lately.

basta ako happy. alam mo yun, it feels like i've made the friends that i need in this lifetime. friends who i know will never leave me, and no matter where i go or how long im gone for, they will always be there when i get back. i dont expect them to just sit there and wait for me. that's just plain silly. i know that in the time that we're apart we would grow, mature, and find our place outside our little circle. then when it's time to come home, we would all still be there, back in our circle, friends again but this time, more mature and grown up.

being apart helps us grow up... we don't grow up when we hang out with the same people all the time. we grow up when we step out of that circle.. when we see the world around us and what it has to offer. this i learned the slow and difficult way. i never understood before why people had to leave in the first place, but now i do.

im not closing my doors to new acquiantances. they can come and go as they please and i wouldnt give a rat's ass about it. the people who are important are the ones who stay, and i found them.

p.s. thanks to new friends too, for cheering me up and for reminding me that i only need a handful to be happy (thats you. :))

who am i?

im a quarter of a century old in a few days. wow. i have a lot of stuff going through my head about how my life is, am i doing good? did i do enough good things for other people? did i do my family good? did i finally forgive and forget people and things they've done to me? i've been assessing what have become of my life, where i've been, what i've done, what i've learned and looking back i don't see myself doing anything significant. really, i think im one of those "forgettable" people. people you say "what's her name again?" to. im one of those. jeez, and i've always dreamt about being a person people will never forget. i've dreamt about doing something memorable, something worth writing in books or a news article even. i havent even saved a life.

*sigh* let's go over my checklist.

see, i do have a handful of people that never forget. i am very thankful for them. at least, in a way, i've touched their lives so significantly that they havent forgotten about me. so that's one off my checklist, be someone to some people. i've also loved people with my whole heart. another check there, love with everything you've got. and i've been dumped too (although thats not on my checklist) and moved on. see moving on is a test of strength. a test of faith. a test of maturity. so one more ticked off, be more mature. im doing pretty good eh? so here i am, self sufficient in a way, independent and not depending on my mom and dad all the time (there are a few exceptions;)) so one more, move out and live on own means.

well, come to think of it, im doing pretty well. it's just that i don't feel significant. i don't feel like im making a difference in the world (c'mon friends, this is the time to intercept, no ira you're wrong, you're wonderful.. yada yada yada). i'm so insignificant that people who meant something to me before forget about me. they just simply forget. how could you forget someone you felt intense feelings for? oh no, this is turning into another why-God-why-him? post. but really. it's not just him, it's old friends, old acquaintances, old family even. well, i have to admit i am guilty of sometimes "fogetting" but i promise, i'm changing my ways now.

so there. the life of an insignificant dot in the universe. i just hope the next 25 years will be different.